be well, sex.f
and thanks mellie...
and, keep it Gonzo Rick

(it's time to let
the other poets, take over
and write real poems)

I do need to learn
to keep it in the form of
a haiku, you know

tell you, people can be
cruel but, can also realize
how wrong they are, repent
but it is an empty world
we just need more "love"
sarcasm aside, and so

hmm, well, react the
divorcees, dead end job people
whores...you get beat i guess

call it ritalin
and we can ignore the fact
that it's really speed

like you said by nick
a lot has to do with
being alone, isolated

a complete person wants
to live, perhaps these incomplete
ones terrify and remind others
of their own moments of doubt
and pain

ach, I don't really
need drugs to be this fucked up
twinkies do just fine

i bought ritalin
to snort from guys just like you
on my all nighters

erm, well, I think that
the guy with the nails in his hand
everyone else thinks I'm a jerk

I think I have a mixed
up faith thing, bisexuality and
ADHD all roled into one
where's my basket, just in case :)

self mutilation
because pain affirms life much
better than careers.

I don't know if
more tragedy would be so
cool, seems to me
to be unnecessary

anything please but
this day-to-day lethargy
the roots of Fight Club

a nuclear bomb
to break our complacency
life would have meaning

I wonder if we
went to Mordor, and threw
the ring into the volcano

what is this world we'd be saving?

the denial of the filth
becomes a hidden naked lunch
the heroin is the ring

frodo cannot throw in the volcano
till he slays his shadow

death is to not have
the ability to choose
suicide gives life

well, I'm not sure how
these selfish i wanna live
types work, but when they
have all they ever wanted
they usually realize how empty
they are...

live...you got something valuable

because we have the
choice to kill ourselves this makes
me happy at times

if suicide did
not exist I'd surely want
to kill myself then

the thought of suicide has given me
comfort many a hard night--so said
Nietzsche

Kerouac was a
Pisces, a sensitive, mood
passive person, trapped

I've come close to
jumping over the edge...
I think some of you say
go ahead and kill yourself
because you've had moments you'd
rather hide from yourself wondering what would it be like to have a broken body on the ground
would anyone notice?

if you work at it
you can fit those thoughts into
graceful haiku form

I'm a Scorpio,
like the man behind "ap"
hiding behind toughness
but actually hurting
I actually think I'd like him
in person, of course after
getting shot by him for real...
actually, I don't know about
New Hampshire guys myself

guys like to act so
tough, but here's the 45
you can go first, richard...

kill yourself...with a 45, as
in an old single of a billy joel
recording, over and over again

you can hear the piano man knocking in your minD!!!!

get out of my head, piano man
I don't have any tips for the 9
o clock, or a life, just let me drink
myself to death, shut up please!

i am a libra
so i guess i'm predisposed
to melancholy

a man who says arse
usually is in high school
slamming kids heads into lockers
who become the future columbines
and they come for you first
lead blazing

I ask those who have a life
what is it that you have and
what makes it worth living
disdainful, selfish, petty
materialistic, brushing off
if you saw the blade slice the
wrist, would you be so nonchalant
if you could see the blood or
would you laugh and say, "let there be drama" and proceed
to act as if nothing happened...
you who don't deal well, I wonder
if your lives are worth anything

hmm, now as for the
people who are not suicides...
who goes first? the on line
world is a drug, if heroin, the
track marks dissolved
Kerouac could have lived
but instead his "worshippers"
murdered him as he murdered himself

back on the topic
of leos, the sign is said
to be like sunlight

gone at times, but
the clouds break up and
things return, you know

(i'll be fine, I just have a temper)

why do i act the
typical tortured poet
we all need hobbies

bucking as she moves
that great American ass
even God must weep

not writing in form
annoying as all get out
must skip over those

who are these people
richard?... sheila?.... msx?
do you have a life???

Scott is off buggering litte boys,
he is a pervert.....but so am I,
thats why I ditched my kids,
cause I want no responsibility
for anything but me and my lil
bitch scott

Sheila Newton, nude webcam
come one, come all!! haha...
I am a ho biznatch
I live in roundrock tx
scott is a ho

shoot urself in the ARSE..(what
kinda word is ARSE anywayz?) i dont care, punkin head beyatch!

suicide??? kill urself..who cares?
i would, but i am 90 years old,
ya friggin bastage....

fuck off moxie
or just do it mate quickly
you can end this pain

in the end, telling a sucide
"hang in there" might not be
the right idea with a noose
around the neck and the idea
his thoughts caused other suicides

criticism gets to the point
where a lot of people do charge ahead, too stupid or oblivious to it's effects, or wired by it, charge ahead, but a lot feel that their practice, is ruined by these people who seem to be ran by, being jaded, being more enamoured of their own godhood or Godliness...
academic cynaide kool aid
and Prof. Jim Jones is teaching you can't create nothing 101, you pass with the first sip, into eternity

let's just pretend I have a .45
it's loaded... and relief finally comes when I fire, pointing at my
head, blam, brains splatter
no more words of how retarded I am, no more, words of which writing is loftier, no more petty bickering about the household chores or job, no more failed work

no more words...

it's gotten so foolish
that when I say I want to kill myself
I don't believe me anymore
and shrug it off as foolish banter

for some reason I am so insecure
right now, I want to kick William's
ass, for real...

I usually take
criticism thinking that
I need to slice my wrists
and prove to the person how
"weak" I am, and not controlling
my emotions... Think about it,
you follow a life script, carefully
considering everything you do.

but who wrote the script...
if my thoughts are so simple
would not suicide be the choice
so loftier people such as yourself
can rule the field?

the constant attack
leads to distraction, and the
peace of mind is disturbed
by those who dicate taste
those who tear up a church
and set up a gallery inside
know not what they do
and don't care to know
lofty false gods...
might as well be Jim Jones
a murderer of children and himself

the pharisees in
jesus's day were noted for
their lofty goals and
lofty language...I am suspicious
of it and usually want to warn the
men who use it that they too
can be wrong and often are
stupid, basically, with authority

sodomize your professors
burn their sacred works
set up a wicker man full of dead white men