so he died for us
but here i sit with folded
arms completely bored

so whaz up died for us
but here i stink with folded
arms completely stinky

so he died for us
but here i sit with folded
arms completely bored

so sad but it's true
if god existed it would
still make no difference

i'd strike the sun if
it insulted me and god
thinks he can break me

nine inches and still growing, nails...

will fight my white whale
go out kicking and screaming
like vengeful Ahab

submit to drug's will
because life's without purpose
my bong don't judge me

Drugs just dull the thing
Most treasured of all, free will!
Your life so you choose

Take what life offers
and use it well, take risks have fun
It

No need to question
Me of knowledge of deaths wide
Swathe, nothing but pain

Every day to my
Responsibility life

I

must recite prayers to
absolve myself but priest will
take handjob instead

ah, ahem
ah, uhm
whack off three times to
a hail mary?

yes, go on my son
a priest masturbates to my
sins as i confess

that's all right...
that's one vice you do
I don't consider a big deal

sure i'll cut it out
if it makes you feel better
but i'm not joking

heh, well, quit the gay thing
and I'll quit saying richard
needs to spew his
lamb vindaloos

since girls are so dumb
i have to be versatile
and get some man meat

ah, I am just bi-curious
but, ah, erm...Richard
the whole macho man kick the shit out of thing...so very much bad guy in "Easy Rider" murdering hick...like I said, he's better off fucking sheep...

i do guys sometimes
but for the most part i'm straight
i have it both ways

shemhamforash or gazundheit?

drive safely there, frank
have an awesome time down there
then come back refreshed

what's with the power seeker? the I have to make this person seem weak so I feel strong routine?

i love tiger so
she means everything to me
can't stand time apart

could be, maybe
Richard is cute and
needs to take out his angst
in a not so violent manner

but if he is a city boy?
I guess he'd have to go to a blow up livestock store to practice...

have you come out yet
is this homosexual
angst i'm seeing here

maybe I should just
leave him in a room with a sheep
and he could take care of his business but not on my time

well, if Richard needs
a bitch and a boyfriend
I could always leave him my number
but does baloney like to be a bottom, his ass would hurt...

oh, that seperation of
race and state bullshit
marry a black girl...

sorry middle class
with your birthing rate the blacks
shall overtake you

so, is richard worth my
time or why does he think
I'm a wuss?

ah, but one provokes
probe looking for a fight
to see if they can get a reaction
good person to mug, throw in he trunk, throw in a gang neighborhood and watch the fun from a distance

doomed to welfare and
public housing they can't stop
breeding like rabbits

well, sex, I see that
someone else is frustrated
but, full of baloney

maybe, he should kill himself
to put him out of my misery...
besides, I don't believe in a fair fight, no one on line does

enter the matrix
bodies packed into buildings
powering the world

suburban wasteland
strip malls erected like neat
orderly gravestones

faith is so easy
but my problem is that i
can't sin properly

damn you columbus
if the earth were flat i could
jump right off this thing

only quitters stop
when they hit rock bottom but
i keep on digging

life is kung-fu sing
might as well slap you
to figure out the hos
(wuss, you're still dead)
(you can't win with baloney sticks

life is confusing
might as well keep living
to figure out the mystery
(wuss, you're still alive!)
(you can't win with everyone :) )

in the end the decision is
a waste, and the reason a life
is done in, is no other options
were given, the company didn't care

don't...live...teach these bastards
what life means

suicide is painless
especially if you aren't
the one to feel the knife
and of course, some people
who come from snobby circles
think life is cheap
and, their own lives, seem to me
to be a throw away fraud
me kill myself? you first

ah, I see, he's trying
to let me see what's dire
to see what the threat means
"or if you don't i will" but
usually the suicide says nothing
until you see him or her floating
dead, face first...

I believe that if I did kill myself
it would be in deep despair
but, if William's words led me to it
in the end, someone he cared about
would do the same, and, he would
be a broken man then
and perhaps, that the lesson is
heal, not kill the soul

would he be in the
denial, saying go ahead
his own selfish living
preventing another selfish one
from dying, for
gluttony is a sin as well, perhaps
would he be willing to die himself
for another, who, was dying, from another's selfishness? if life or death were necessary, would survivor ethics of me first prevail?
to me this is evil, and I wonder if the show should be on the other foot, evil sinner as I am

it's not william's responsibility to
save lives, but in real life, if someone were about to kill themselves, would he be able to
put himself in their shoes, or walk on? has he seen death himself or is he innocent there as well? The smell of broken flesh, the unmovement of a dead man or woman? could be be a paramedic perhaps someday?

this one is aimed at liz
love is not impossible,
just very hard, those who say
love is a lie, have been burned
and gave up...

it is your concern alone...
right now my heart is full of
magickal thinking, fears, doubts
the dark night of the soul passes.

if we wait...